There are many things on my life’s “to do” list–worthy endeavors–which I have had to erase and replace with something else because they were not expedient for my best growth. At least not right now. For example, I’ve got ideas for about four more novels swimming around in my head, and that’s not including the the four series I’ve already started.
It may happen some day. Or not.
You see, I’m also busy being a mom, and that takes quite a bit of time if I want to do it right.
Here’s the thing: the kids will grow and be gone in less than a decade. In that time, my ideas and skills will only continue to grow as long as I nurture them.
The books can wait. My kids can’t.
Raising a family is a sacred endeavor, and God has promised again and again that if we put first things first, He’ll take care of the rest.
Besides, ten years from now, I’ll have a different perspective on life that will surely add depth to my writing that is impossible to obtain now.
Perhaps the greatest growth taking place in my life right now is learning to stop asking, “When is it my turn?” or “Why not me?” and to start asking, “What will You have me do or be?” Each time I surrender to God’s will, I find that He strengthens me to do so much more than was my own goal.
Skeptics may call this a cop-out or a selling-myself-short thing. They may say that I lack ambition or drive. But I still write every day. I still work at my craft. And I do have nine books available on Amazon right now, selling enough to pay for much-needed mommy spa days, etc.
I know that the world will keep revolving in the meantime and–in the grand scheme of things–life is not about me.
I know there are thousands of you out there with books inside of you. Perhaps, you feel buried under the laundry and dirty dishes, and swept away by the carpooling and PTA meetings. You wonder when you’ll ever find time to write before midnight or after dawn. To you I say,
Hang in there. Treasure this time, for it shall quickly pass. What you are doing now, building up the character and capacity of your children, will be the greatest legacy you leave. Don’t underestimate the worth of your endeavors. Think of those people who have most inspired you over the years and realize that you are one of those people for someone else–and your children will be, too.
Great things are coming your way, mom.